Oh hey strangers. I know I've been neglecting this space a little, but not for lack of desire. It has just been busy lately, and I have been using all my alone time during naps to just lay down and stare at a wall or eat a meal sitting down.
We are in California now and have been for over two weeks. It has been a rough transition for me with many late night confessions to Ben telling him I think the boys and I need to go to Canada earlier than expected. Ben is working 12-14 hour days and he usually doesn't get home till long after the boys are in bed, we are all in a one bedroom apartment and I don't know a single soul here. That's the hardest part, it is lonely. The group Ben works with here are all single guys and so there are no wives or other kids for us to bum around with. That, combined with Patrick still waking up at least 6 times a night and I feel like I'm losing it out here a little!! It's just that after days on end with no break and no adult contact I lose my patience and become a mom I am not proud of. It's been hard on Everett too, he misses home and his stuff and he gets sick of only seeing me after a while too. I feel silly thinking that this is a trial of some sort, there are so many worse situations I could be in but at the same time it's been pretty hard. WOMP WOMP
We have done this the last three summers and they have been hard too, but when I look back I mostly remember the good stuff, like going to the beach, finding 'our' new pizza place, exploring new parts of California and getting lots of time in Canada with my parents and family! So I'm trying to focus on the good right now and make more memorable moments for us. I want Everett to remember blueberry picking with me and his little brother close behind him, grabbing a Mcdonalds cone on the way to the park to run around before bedtime and him and his dad burying each other in the sand at the beach.
My mom is coming at the end of the month for a quick visit and to fly back with us to Canada where we are going to spend June which we are all SO looking forward to. AND I bought our tickets to Disneyland yesterday and me and Everett sat and watched youtube videos of the rides and picked which ones look amazing and which ones are too scary for his 39 inch self. I mean they call Roger Rabbit a kids ride?! creeepiiiooo
Now onto a regularly scheduled FriYAY post! (On a Saturday)
++I finished Gilmore Girls. I only watched it sporadically in high school and then started at the beginning when it came to netflix and took a year to watch it all. I loved it, it was my calming, feel good show but I felt sad at the end, like it was rushed (apparently it was) and I just really really loved Logan Huntzberger and wanted them to get married on a mountain top. Another one of my very favorite shows ended forever, The Good Wife,and the finale was so un-finale-ie and I just felt robbed and everything I love is ending. Did you hear Nashville is ending too? The world is robbing me of my JOY PEOPLE! If they don't end it with everybody happy and everybody in love with who they are supposed to be in love with I'm not going to be happy! Also bring back Parenthood. Make better showwwwssss!
++Do you guys follow the beyouty bureau on instagram? You should. She is doing drugstore DUPES this week and has the best products, I have screen shotted like every thing she posts and I just want to go into Ulta and hide until they close and then spend an entire night trying every product. Is that anyone else's fantasy?
++We have recently learned that Everett is incapable of walking. He stomps, jumps or runs only. We would have never made this realization on our own but thanks to our new downstairs neighbor lady who has told us how many pairs of ear plugs she has had to buy since we moved in, we are now aware of this fact. Working on the stomping before 9am Maria don't you worry!
++For Mother's Day this year Ben watched the kids and I drove by myself (so invigorating after you have kids for some reason), I went and had lunch by myself at the cheesecake factory (sat at the bar like an ADULT) and then shopped by myself for 3 hours. IT WAS GLORIOUS!! I am beyond obsessed with E + P + being a mom but some alone time was so good for the soul. I think I'm going to try and go see a movie by myself tonight after they go to bed. Dream Big.
++I recently got some of these Sweedish Lotta clogs off ebay like the true Swede I am (not at all) and I love them. I didn't realize they are like legit wood, like a fancy two-by-four real wood. I'm loving this trend and hope that Ikea starts selling them soon for super cheap.
++This carpool karaoke with James Cordon is amazing!! It will make you happy, start at 6 minutes if you don't love Gwen Stefani! Also these two are goals, just the sweetest.
++I absolutely loved this article about blaming yourself for your difficult baby. I cried. I have had two and still do. Patrick is so sweet when he is happy but he likes to be held at all times and in all things and in all places and he screams in the car seat like it's killing him and he doesn't sleep. I have been blaming myself for these things. I got him in these bad habits, I spoiled him too much, I don't have him on enough of a schedule etc etc. This article says "You get credit for the happy affectionate child, you get blamed for the one who isn’t. You blame yourself, and other people blame you...As a pediatrician, I need to acknowledge that your job as a parent is to love and cherish and civilize the particular child you were given — not the child you had planned on, not the child your own parents were sure you would get, not the child in any particular parenting book...Some wrote to say, well, as long as you have a healthy child, you have nothing to complain about. That’s true, in a certain sense. But you need to pay attention to your own trials, even if they aren’t mortal, and acknowledge the energy and dedication and love and good humor that get you through the difficult days of parenthood, which can be truly difficult, even when you have a lot to be thankful for."
Have a good weekend errrbody! We're off to watch a travelling fairyland group of actors put on a play in the park titled 'Cinderella Meets the Avengers' hmmm I'm sure that will be memorable for all of us!