Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Patrick: Four Months

OOOOKKKKK. has it really only been four months? The first two months of Patrick's life flew by so so fast and since then time has been moving so slowly, like he's always been here. Patrick has so much of a little personality already and he is sweet and observant but also pretty specific on his likes and dislikes. I don't think we are fully out of the colic phase yet but getting close. He just has a sensitive tummy so he gets gas pains which leads to at least an hour of inconsolable screaming a day, It is hard because I feel like it is my fault-it's my milk and i'm psychoanalyzing every little thing I eat constantly!

  • He is noisy and likes to do these very loud pig-like-squeals! I'm not tired of them yet, its adorable
  • He will only nap in someones arms.....so I don't really get ANYTHING done and I think he is too young for sleep training (personal belief is 6 months the earliest) 
  • He actually likes to be held kind of always 
  • He is getting so much more smiley and loves when anyone looks at him, he will get all bashful and smile and just turn inside out
  • He perks up to Ben's voice and follows him around the room always and is always watching Everett so intently
  • He is rolling over back to front the second we put him down but then gets frustrated quickly on his tummy that he can't roll back over. 
  • He is in a major spit up phase---so.much.laundry.
  • Driving anywhere is really hard and gives me major anxiety because he screams until he is blue in the face, covered in sweat and spitting up....is it true some babies actually enjoy their car seats? I don't believe it.
  • Same night schedule, wakes and eats about every 2.5 to 3 hours and sometimes those dang gas pains keep him up
  • Loves his hands in his mouth constantly-see above picture
  • Grabbing things and figuring out his hands slowly but not very interested in any toys or anything yet
  • Opens his mouth anytime anything or anyone gets even remotely close to his face. Do all babies do this? I think it is so adorable
  • I'm in no rush to start solids with him
  • He definitely looks similar to Everett as a baby but still has his own look, rounder face, different lips and ears too.
  • Wants to 'stand' always 
  • He is a snacker and LOVES the boob. He no longer takes a pacifier or a bottle, whoops.
Guys, remember how I wrote that epiphany on instagram about how I was going to enjoy the moment even though I had a colicky baby and still try to soak up his newborn phase and not wish it away like I did with Everett? I kind of failed. It has been HARD and I have wished it away, mostly because I don't want him to hurt anymore but also because once there is a screaming baby around, everyone near it, patience levels drop fast. I have had less patience with Everett because I'm tending to a very upset Patrick and less patience for Patrick because what can I do to help you? nothing. I know I'm making this sound so bad and dramatic and I obviously love him more than I can tell you but I don't want to pretend like I did this gracefully either. I didn't,

 As Patrick gets better I am feeling a little more positive about things and it is literally joyful for me to watch him learn new things and see more of his personality shine through. He is this fat little guy with the best cheeks that smiles and coos for me in the morning while we wait for E to wake up holds onto my shirt or my hair while he nurses and bunches his legs up to his chest and with all his might throws his whole body into rolling over. I love looking at him while someone else is holding him, I am used to always seeing him so close up, but he looks so different and SO SO adorable looking at me from across the room that its all I can do to not run over and scoop him back up. We sure love our little Pattycakes and its going to get so good so soon.

Monday, February 8, 2016


Guys, was that the best episode of the bachelor ever? I submit that it was.

Like I have got some bachelor adrenaline pumping and I just have to write out my thoughts...You see, I was really nervous for this season because I loved Ben so much from Kaitlyn's season and usually the bachelor/bachelorette disappoint me and I was scared Ben was going to do that but he hasn't yet, and this episode he was betta than eva!! Someone mentioned that it was like he read the prince charming handbook, it's true-best bachelor ever!

You see, I take this show really seriously, like so seriously that most of the time I can't even read the funny blogs making fun of it because then it loses some of its magic. I really believe in these peoples love and feel personally devastated when they break up, I know that's so annoying and pathetic but I believe I believe (while clapping hands)

Ok tonight's episode here we go
  • "They like painting nails and braiding each others hair and I like reading books and sitting in my room thinking"  DEAR HEAVENS OLIVIA!
  • The thing is I actually feel kind of sorry for Olivia, because I really do think she is delusional and a possible sociopath. She quit her job to come on the bach and probably no one who watches national television will give her a job now and MEMEs of her mouth will probably be internet staples for the rest of our lives.
  • I was sad/surprised to see Jennifer go. She was his first kiss and it seemed like she was so normal! He seems to like the blondes.
  • Caila and bens date-what the what? She was not making any sense. I don't get it. It sounded like maybe she really wants to be falling in love with him but is kind of forcing herself to? She was giving him super conflicting signals and I think SHE thinks she's his front runner and maybe getting cocky. 
  • Group date-also weird vibes. "Sooooo....do you like pigs?" ..... "I like to eat pigs" cricket cricket. Leah gave a bad name to females everywhere tonight. Throw a girl under the bus because you're jealous and then lie to all their faces about it...not cool LEAH, get a grip. I felt bad for Lauren B., nothing worse than being falsely accused #freestevenavery 
  • GO BEN, BEN FOR PRESIDENT for seeing through her desperation and sending her home
  • It's so weird for me to see their ages and see that almost all of them are younger than me, like SO WEIRD. Kind of like when I watch TV Shows and the characters are in high school but I feel like they are so old and we are on the same page and have the same life basically and then I'm like oh wait I have been graduated for almost 10 years and have two children.
  • This doesn't usually happen during a bachelor(ette) season for me, but I really like ALL the girls left.
  • Becca is stunning and down to earth and has great skin and I am liking her so much more this season than I did on Chris's. I don't know if her and Ben have AS much chemistry as him and some of the others though? I bet she will be the next bachelorette, calling it, someone write that down.
  • I love Amanda and her little squeaky voice, but also hate her because how does she look that good after having two children? I think Ben is so sweet with her and says exactly what every mom would want to hear. I'm gonna die when he meets her daughters. DIE
  • JoJo is probably my favorite. They seem like a real couple! He promised he wouldn't blindside her last episode, that was risky, I hope its true.
  • My friend and I were talking and because Ben is so nice, like so super nice, he is gonna be the biggest heart breaker bachelor ever. He makes each girl feel so special and loved that they all are gonna be blindsided HARD!
  • I am calling that Lauren B wins. I think she is adorable and relatable and I like the goofy moments I have seen them have together.
  • K the twin is hilarious. I seriously want to be her friend. She made me lolllllzzzzzz....I don't think she will make it much father but she is pure entertainment.
  • I could not believe he sent Olivia home,....you trickers you bachelor producers and editors. I am so glad that for once a bachelor saw through all the drama and fakeness
  • The shot of them going off on the boat, leaving Olivia on a desolate island in the pouring rain? Too far bachelor producers...too far...Very reminiscent of that one time Kaitlyn dumped cupcake in the closet guy on the edge of a rocky cliff side 
  • I really meant it when I said I kind of feel bad for Olivia, she is obviously a little cray for sure but she def got the villain edit when she was not nearly as bad as Tiara or Courtney or maybe even the sleeper villain LEAH! But she's gotta know you just can't say "like deep thinking and intelligent conversations are my jam"
  • The previews for the rest of the season give me anxiety because of how excited and invested I am, I just want to watch it all right now and for everyone to find true love and live happily ever after and I want to watch a show about that too.
  • Also you KNOW I will be watching the Sunday Bachelor special, like nothing could keep me from that.
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